Introduction

 

Introduction

 

Was that how it worked? she brooded:  you started out thinking you were doing something for others, to find you were doing it for yourself - or the reverse:  And was that a good thing or not?

Robin Morgan, 1988:48[1][MP1] 

 

This document introduces performance-ritual as a genre, and the particular series Centre of the Storm as an example of that genre.  It is an examination of the journey of a woman in search of an Australian feminist spirituality through ‘performance-ritual’.  The journey had its outcome in the series of performance-rituals, Centre of the Storm.  As a genre, performance-ritual is an extension of Theatre and Feminist traditions of spiritual and political action.  The feminist content of the performance-rituals exemplified in this thesis positions them as ‘feminist performance-rituals’.  As events, performance-rituals are many-layered expressions of personal, intuitive, political and religious journeyings. They embody questions and comments which evolve from a need to continually revisit and deconstruct the philosophical and religious paradigms from which Western society has been, and continues to be, built.  This revisiting is conducted in the light of new images and ideas which spring from readings, experiences and a ‘need to know’.  The outcome is then performed with conscious acknowledgment of ‘spirit’.  As an example of this process, Centre of the Storm focuses on the implications of being a white Australian woman at the beginning of the 21st century.

 

The research was conducted for, and the results presented through events I have termed ‘performance-rituals’:  events which simultaneously function as performances and rituals.  As ‘performance’, performance-ritual is subjective and embodied text.  It is the enacted expression of a personal, inner and intuitive journey.  As ‘ritual’, it is the ritualisation of that journey and an enacted expression of an evolving spirituality.   Because it is ritual, the completion of the ritual process is more important than ‘high art’ performances, and the videoed and photographic records are just that:  they are not presented as professional products.  These, and other, differences between ‘performance’ and ‘ritual’ are examined in Chapters 3, 4 and 5. 

 

The written examination, which follows in this document, is illustrative of academically privileged ‘written’ text.  The written text is an objective analysis of intuitive, embodied text.[2]  It refers back to what had been already accomplished through performance-ritual and, using feminist and ritual theory, develops frameworks from which to discuss the results.  The distinction between performed and written text is important.  From my perspective, as a creator-performer, the performance-rituals are the text which gives shape to the research being undertaken at the time.  They ‘say it all’, and they say many things simultaneously.  They are ‘my voice’.  From an academic perspective, however, the actual enactment of the journey is not enough.  Academia prioritises written text. 

 

Academia also prioritises the selection of a narrow range of concepts around which to argue;  the fewer the better.  It might be possible, therefore, to select one of a number of concepts presented in this document, and develop a thesis from there.  It might also be possible to develop a thesis around this one concept without the performance-rituals being enacted in the first place - the concept would have sufficed.  But that is not the way it happened.  The intuitive journey of the performance-rituals, what they say, and how that locates them in ritual theory and feminist spirituality is what drives this thesis.  This means that many interrelated aspects are discussed.  So there is a degree of difficulty in locating this type of thesis in the academy.

 

This document prioritises the performance-rituals as text.  It is the practice which is important.  The written text, or analysis, arises from there.  In this way the performed and written sections, when viewed as a whole, support the feminist project of continuums and equality of, rather than hierarchical dualisms between, rational and embodied knowledge.  In Melissa Raphael’s terms, it is part of the other movements in this historical epoch, which strive for a ‘reunion of rationality and intuition’ (Raphael, 1996:228).[3]

 

Less Than Half the Story

My interest in this particular way of performing grew from involvement in the Christian church and an increasing need to search for ‘the truth’ underlying Christianity.[4]  Growing up and being educated as a white Australian woman during the 1950’s, 60’s and 70’s was a process of being introduced to Eurocentric and masculinist values.  This was reinforced by my commitment to the Christian faith.  All foreground models were the stories, actuality and authority of men doing and saying.[5]  In my experience the only places where women were a focus was in the home, which was ‘mother’s’ domain, and in the area of dance, where the majority of my teachers were women.  It was not until the 80’s that women’s ideas began to filter into mainstream social institutions, including the Anglican Christian church.[6]

 

At the same time, there was an emerging awareness of other hidden stories:  those of indigenous Australians.  In suburban Australia, schooling in the ‘50’s’ and ‘60’s’, was contained by an insular white, Anglo community.  The stories of early Aboriginal presence were taught once in primary school, as part of early Australian history, and never referred to again.[7]  Other ‘exotic’ cultures were likewise rarely mentioned.  The underlying assumption was that ‘Aborigines’ had lived a long time ago and were no more.  Finally, in 1973, ‘the newly elected Labour government developed and implemented...a policy of self-determination’ for indigenous Australians and ‘government-funded Indigenous community controlled organisations were established to deliver services’ (Moreton-Robinson, 2000:13).[8] 

 

The National Aboriginal and Islander Dance Association (NAISDA) was one of the organisations established, under the direction of Carole Johnson, as a direct result of the National Seminar On Aboriginal Arts, held in Canberra the same year.  Following this, the Aboriginal Dance Centre Redfern (ADTR) was founded in 1979 by indigenous Australian, Christine Donnelly.[9]  The change in governmental policy meant that during the 70’s and 80’s the dominant culture’s lack of awareness of indigenous presence began to change in some circles, including the Christian church.  Institutions, like Pitt Street Uniting Church and its minister, Dorothy McRea-McMahon, began to engage in political action with, and on behalf of, indigenous Australians. As with the feminist awakening, it took forty years before any public awareness of Aboriginal presence as real, ‘here and now’.

 

At the same time there was a growing interest, in some Church circles, in developing an Australian-specific expression of the Christian faith.  The increasing awareness of Aboriginal presence, the perceived relationship of indigenous spirituality to ‘the land’, and the simultaneous publication of the writing of American Dominican scholar, Matthew Fox, fuelled the growth of the ‘Creation Spirituality’ movement in Australia.[10]  Eminent Australian scholars, Veronica Brady and Eugene Stockton were at the forefront of this work and are continuing to address these issues in their writing, as are others, including anthropologist Deborah Bird Rose.[11]  Pitt Street Uniting Church and the Department of Religious Studies at the University of Sydney, under Dr. Jim Tulip, were among a number of Christian organisations beginning to incorporate an Australian consciousness into their Christian expression.

 

Since the 80’s, therefore, I have felt a need to ‘catch up’.[12]  In relation to this thesis, my own ‘catching up’ has been in three major areas.  One is in relation to ‘women’s’ story;  the quest to discover where women have been all this time.  Another is to find an alternative spirituality which expresses the reality of being an ex-Christian white woman living in contemporary Australia.  This feeds into to the third quest to revisit the story of the colonisation of Australia and discover some of the hidden story of indigenous Australians.  Centre of the Storm is the medium that integrates and expresses the outcomes of these quests.  In this way performance-ritual takes the place of the written word.  In performance-ritual the questions, discussion and theories are embodied in the actions and words of the performers, and performance-ritual becomes religious expression and political action.  Therefore, this thesis prioritises performance-ritual as a medium for presenting information and experience.

 

Performance as Religious Expression and Political Action

Within the Christian dance movement, modern dance, as well as other theatrical performance, has been used to express ‘spirit’ and religious experience for a number of years.  These same media have also been used to explore political and environmental concerns. Yet the quest to find the ‘truth’ sometimes interferes.  In my case, after completing an introductory course in theology, questions about the ‘facts’ underlying Christian doctrine, began to outweigh belief.  My trust in Church teaching as a true and accurate record of once existing identities and sayings began to erode, and along with it, my confidence in the honesty of the ministers/priests and spiritual directors.  Any sense that their teaching might have relevance for the Australia of the 90’s, especially for women, evaporated.  This disillusionment is common to other women engaged in spiritual feminism.

 

Simultaneously, opportunities for contact with indigenous Australians brought to light unspoken differences.  This began with Worship in the Park (1988).[13]  This event included segments of a danced history of arrivals and conflicts, leading to a message of reconciliation and ‘working together for the future’.  The National Aboriginal and Islander Dance Company was invited to be part of the performance as original inhabitants of Australia, and to be integrated into the ensuing scenes as part of the Australian cultural mix.  The music and direction of the scenes had already been decided, so already it was a token invitation and illustrative of Western privilege.  NAISDA’s company insisted on including a dance solo to the song, ‘Brown Skin Baby'.  At the time the significance was not realised, and there was a lack of understanding about their insistence.  But, of course, it was the story of the stolen generation.  These events which had a devastating impact on the indigenous community had not been included as part of ‘our’ Australian story.  We, that is the Church organisers and me as a choreographer, thought we were being inclusive.  But we weren’t.

 

This story of white ignorance was repeated in another Church context five years later:  a high profile ecumenical service on ‘healing for the nations’.  Representatives of a particular Aboriginal community were invited by the organisers ‘to carry their flag and put it on the altar’ but were not invited to be part of the spoken word or asked how they would like to represent themselves.  Again, they were just being told what to do, not asked, nor involved in the planning.[14]  The promise of Revelation, which was one of the readings for the service, was still a distant reality and it was time to step outside the Church.[15]

 

The Emergence of Performance-Ritual

Even before stepping out of the Christian church, the performances I had been creating were already mirroring this search.[16]  The performances became the outward expression of an inner journey in which others were invited to take part as coperformers or as members of an audience.  This kind of journey is reflected in the work of feminist writers, such as Mary Daly and Susan Griffin in non fiction, and Robin Morgan and Eavan Boland in poetry and fiction.[17]  To summarise Elsbeth Probyn, it is a journey to and through self in order to make comment on the world as ‘I’ experience it in the hope of finding meeting points and commonalities with (an)other.[18]

 

By 1994 the Christian paradigm was no longer acceptable to me and I decided to take sole responsibility for my own spiritual life and journey.  The journey parallels the one many other spiritual feminists have travelled.  It is one of listening to ‘self’:  to own inner being/soul/heart.  Rather than relying on another’s spiritual, or religious, ‘truth’, ‘the self’  became its own model, its own ‘guru’ (Daly, 1985:73 ff.).[19]  The search for alternatives began.

 

My own early research into women’s story and ‘spirituality’ was expressed in three performances:  Dark Fire (1994), For Eve (1995), and Fallen Totems (1997).[20]  Only gradually did I come to realise that the performances had a ritual aspect and in some ways reflected the journey and structure of the Christian liturgy.  They were all performed in recognition of ‘the sacred’ and Dark Fire ended up being a ‘rite-of-passage’ and a ‘rite of initiation’.  So, I began to call them ‘performance-rituals’. The dual term allows for the implications of both performance and ritual;  implications which are addressed in the following chapters.  Performance-rituals are rituals, as well as performances, journeys, stories, questions and challenges, and it is difficult to pinpoint one thing that the performance-rituals are or do above all else for they work in many dimensions simultaneously.[21]  The allowance for continuums, rather than the dualistic ‘either-or’, and for concepts, such as multidimensionality, is an important part of feminist theory and practice.

 

What is Performance-Ritual?

So what are these events termed, performance-ritual?  Performance-ritual can be used as an umbrella term to describe the genre and as a descriptive term for each event.  It is a term I have coined to explain the genre in an attempt to differentiate it from other theatrical performances performed in a ritualistic style.  The differentiations are discussed further in Chapter 3.  Therefore, it may mean different things to different people. The following is an explanation of the multidimensional aspects underlying my use of the term, ‘performance-ritual’.

 

Performance-rituals are first and foremost performances.[22]  From the perspective of performance-ritual, performance is the medium through which thoughts about changing relationships with the world are processed, integrated and expressed. They are embodied expressions of personal journeyings.  They are many discrete journeys which when added together parallel the journey of life. The overall journey is a journey of question, a political journey, and a journey of the spirit.  It is a journey which reacts to and is motivated by readings, what is happening in the world and in the mind.  It includes a re-mythologising of ‘self’ and ‘life’.  It reforms identity by placing ‘self’ at the centre so that the mind and body can take in the information and re-integrate, allowing a new outlook and understanding. In this way performance functions as a form of embodied discourse, the writing on and through the body, literally not just metaphorically.  It is the writing of a process, a movement towards ‘self’ and ‘soul’ which may or may not be the same thing.  As such, it is an extension of 19th - 20th century women performers’ explorations of spiritual expression through performance.  This early work is introduced in Chapter 2.

 

But it is the ritual aspect which is of particular interest in this thesis.  ‘Ritual’, however, is a contested word.  It has been re-defined in theory to refer to a range of performed activities.  The problem of definition due to the lack of context specificity in discussions of ritual is examined in Chapter 3.  In relation to performance-ritual, however, ritual is context specific, and is used with ‘performance’ because the journey on which the audience is invited to embark is the outcome of a search for meaning.  There is a need to acknowledge ‘Life Force’, ‘Elemental Be-ing’, or ‘the why’.[23]  It is part of religious practice.  Some performance-rituals also signify specific moments of significant change and end up functioning as rites-of-passage and rites of initiation, such as, Dark Fire (1994) and Leavetaking (1997).[24]  These structural and functional aspects of ritual will be further examined in Chapters 3, 4, and 5.[25] 

 

Unlike traditional public ritual, performance-ritual is one individual’s religious expression.  Others taking part in or viewing the event are not expected to experience it in the same way.  It is not the aim to speak on behalf of the audience or the other performers or to create a ritual for them.  In presenting the work the assumption is, ‘This is where I am, this is my experience, this is my understanding, these are my questions.  Is there anything with which you can identify?’  If anyone identifies with any element in the performance-ritual, it is a bonus.  It is enough for the piece to work as a performance for others and as a ritual for me.  If the piece works as a ritual as well for some audience members and coperformers it has more to do with their own questions and journey than anything else.[26]  But when it happens ‘community’ or ‘church’ is temporarily brought into being.  The ritual aspect is exemplified in a number of ways and will be discussed more fully in the following chapters.  This current discussion serves as a summary.

 

As performance-ritual is an expression of a personal sacred search, it continually recreates an individual and independent religion, theology, or cosmology. Feminists engaged in this work tend to prefer the terms, spirituality or thealogy. These women are examined in Chapter 1. Yet, there are problems with these terms, as other spiritual feminists, such as Raphael, have illustrated (Raphael, 1996:15 ff.).  ‘Religion’ is usually associated with institutionalised beliefs, which this thesis critiques.  ‘Theology’ has historically been used for ‘the science treating of God, His nature & attributes, & His relation to man & the universe’; an anathema to a woman centred spirituality (Fowler & Fowler, 1955:869).[27]  ‘Cosmology’ refers to beliefs about the creation and development of the universe, which is only part of a spiritual belief system.  ‘Thealogy’ has been coined by spiritual feminists in opposition to ‘theology’, but has strong links with ‘goddess spirituality’ which performance-ritual attempts to move beyond.  Feminist spirituality may include, but is not limited to ‘goddess spirituality’, as the work of Daly, Luce Irigaray and performance-ritual exemplify.[28]  Therefore, ‘thealogy’ is only used when the writers examined define their work in this way.  ‘Spirituality’ is a much more encompassing term.  However, it errs in being too vague, without the implied need for an accompanying tradition or ground, which Centre of the Storm begins to establish.  Without satisfactory alternatives, all these terms are used in this thesis in specific reference to particular writers, and ‘feminist spirituality’ is used for the work of performance-ritual.

 

The performance-rituals do the work of creating an alternative ground for spirituality by exploring ways of viewing, metaphoring and expressing an experience of ‘god’, energy, ?’ or ‘the sacred’ in the light of the material reality of our world and its past and present history.  The difficulties with terminology continue.  ‘God’ is historically gendered masculine.  ‘Goddess’ is gendered female.  The practice of defining ‘masculine’ and ‘feminine’ expressions of divinity creates a dualism.  The experience of ‘divine’ is part of and beyond gender and is unity, not dualism.  It is ‘mystery’, the ‘?   It is immanent and transcendent and everywhere in between.  It is part of, and connecting, all that there is.  This is the view held by this writer.  In this thesis, therefore, the terms ‘energy’, ‘spirit’, ‘Be-ing’, ‘other’ and ‘life force’ are variously used. 

 

The implications of accepting a ‘divine’ aspect in all of life, leads to a biophilic approach to spirituality.  This is in contrast to the Western domination model enshrined in Christianity, where God is at the pinnacle of the pyramid, man is under God, as His representative on earth, and all else is underneath.  This model has been critiqued by a number of feminist theologians inside of the Church, such as Elizabeth Dodson Gray and Rosemary Radford Ruether.[29]  These reformists have offered alternative eco-friendly interpretations of the Christian Bible, especially of the Old Testament, and their work is examined in Chapter 1.  This reinterpretation parallels other work emerging from within the Christian church, with a similar aim, such as by Fox and, in Australia, The Earth Bible Team, led by Norman Habel.[30]

 

Fox’s and Habel’s work do acknowledge the feminist critique of Christianity’s patriarchal history and content, but sidestep the issue by their focus on ecological retrieval;  a practice reflected in Ruether and Dodson-Gray’s work.  Fox and Ruether address Christianity’s focal story;  that of the masculine hero, Jesus.  However, Ruether reinterprets this historically male figure and story, and finds value in it from a feminist perspective, as does Australian theologian, Elaine Wainwright.[31]  Fox reinterprets Christ as a cosmic, all-encompassing global symbol, without reflecting that this practice of universalising Western thought is a continuation of the Western patriarchal, colonialist habit of the white male voice defining, and speaking for, all.  None of this work confronts the possibility that it might be time to move on.  Rather, their purpose is retrieval.

 

In contrast, performance-ritual struggles to define and express an evolving and changing, ground for spirituality;  one relevant to this woman, time and place.  Centre of the Storm, in particular, begins to incorporate ecofeminist understandings.  In addition, performance-ritual’s work of viewing, metaphoring and expressing one individual’s spirituality challenges the need for recognised, official, institutionalised group religions and their focal stories and underlying philosophies or the need for designated and approved ‘truths, ‘gurus’, tradition, and ritual action.

 

Another part of the ritual aspect is a willingness to be open to, allow for, and acknowledge synchronicities in the time/place context and content as well as during the performance itself.  This element is part of the listening to, and opening up for, communication with ‘life force’.  The interest is in the fact that it happens when it does happen rather than trying to explain it or explain it away.  Whether synchronicities occur because ‘energy’ becomes another player, or whether it is because they are looked for and therefore in some way created, invented or brought into being is irrelevant.  It is a way of honouring ‘the mystery of life’;  of acknowledging that there are some things about life that can never be understood, contained or controlled;  to be content living with that uncertainty;  and to honour that ‘something’ which had to be/not be in the beginning, if in fact there was a beginning.

 

The opening up of a sacred time and place into which the performance-ritual can exist is another outcome of the ritual aspect.  The area into which the performance-ritual moves becomes a sacred and safe place where experiences, stories and metaphors can be presented with respect.[32]  The concept of ‘sacred place’ moves beyond the confines of a church or temple, insulated and set apart from the world outside, to incorporate the body, nature and many varied places and spaces which are engaged during the performance-rituals.  Performance-ritual is the way in which I can claim my own ‘sacred’ and ‘sacred space’ and explore the story of my own inner (spiritual, emotional and physical) and outer (temporal, spatial and historical) sacred places and see if there are meeting points with others.

 

The preference is to focus on women’s stories in relation to ‘sacred’ and not to try to accommodate or include men or men’s stories, ideas or metaphors in any of the action unless it is absolutely necessary, but even then it is only to assist the overall woman-focus of my work.[33]  From this perspective, performance-ritual is open to criticism for being essentialist and this criticism is answered in Chapter 1.  The need for ‘woman’ specificity comes in reaction to a number of experiences.  It has something to do with the ‘energy’ or ‘life force’ and the way in which it is involved and experienced in individual bodies.  It is a very personal experience and intimately associated with sexuality, union and the gender of the body through which energy passes and in which it resides.  It is also a reaction to the male-hero centred religion of Christianity and the need to re-create a spirituality that speaks to, and for, me.  But beyond this, the focus on ‘woman’ is because it is an individual journey, ‘my journey’, and this individual is biologically female.  Part of this journey is the need to find my own voice. 

 

On the other hand, the individualised and personal nature of the journey should not preclude other women and men identifying with part, or all, of the journey, or with the evolving spiritual matrix, or with the performance-rituals. It was exciting for me to discover that the journey of the performance-rituals from 1994 onwards parallels Daly’s ‘spiralling journey of exorcism and ecstasy’. In addition, women in institutionalised religions, like Christianity, do not seem to have a problem identifying with the male hero’s journey, the belief system, or the rituals:  at least, I did not at the time.  So men should experience similar ease.  As anthropologist Drid Williams points out, ‘the story of our growth and maturation as human beings can be seen to be parallel with the growth of our knowledge(s) concerning the ethnographical narrative of our ethnicity and its relation to others’ (Williams, 1991:254).[34]

 

But the ritual aspect of the performance-ritual functions in other ways as well.  The performance-rituals are a way of imparting information and knowledge of story and history as part of the process of exploring ‘the meaning of life’ and redefining what it means to be ‘human’.  This makes links with ancestral oral tradition, which was later mirrored in the liturgy of the Christian church and the morality and miracle plays and the pageants of the Middle Ages.  This aspect also reflects traditional and ritual practices of other cultures, including indigenous Australian communities.[35]  In performance-ritual the story of ‘now’ is placed in conversation with the story of the past. 

 

Since 1991, I have consciously decided to centre this action around women in time and place, for it is this story that was not part of my upbringing or education. It is important to know this past and present story for the process of re-defining what it means to be a woman, as well as ‘human’.[36]   The content of the early performance-rituals emerged from reading generic ‘history’ and ‘religion’ in relation to ‘woman’.  The story had not been totally personalised or related to particular women in specific times and places.  That was the next step.  By the time of Centre of the Storm there was a need to see the reality of particular stories and situations and relate this to familial story, especially how this story continues to impact on Australia.

 

 The performance-rituals are also a way of recreating meaning in response to change, a reordering of reality.  The social changes which have occurred prior to and during the 20th century in the West, including in ‘the body of knowledge’, technology, and the globalisation of knowledge and lifestyle, have led to the difficult process of birthing new ways of mythologising, believing and expressing world view.  The glass which obliterated the rest of the world from ‘ourselves’ as white, middle class, or trying to be, has been shattered and ‘we’ can no longer pretend to believe in our ‘specialness’, or that we are ‘better than’ no matter who ‘we’ are;  a point that Probyn also makes (Probyn, 1994:61).  The life-and-soul destroying, as well as life-enhancing, effects of change in relation to people and the environment are becoming more apparent.  The performance-rituals allow this re-ordering to be ritually presented and expressed.

 

The performance-rituals allow time to ‘touch base’ with the so-called ‘eternal’ or ‘universal’ values and ideals such as truth, honesty, integrity, social conscience, charity and love in light of the knowledge of what is, and is not, valued in our own and others’ culture and experience, and in relation to the impact of social change.  The values themselves are called into question, as is ‘hope’.[37]  The performance-rituals function as a place to explore the apparent or real contradiction between the ideal and the reality and re-define, or re-affirm, ‘belief’ and ‘Be-ing’ in life, in self, and in the present.[38]  The action of holding together these contradictions is part of the ritual process, and is an emerging concept in feminist theory. In the context of performance-ritual ‘holding’ becomes part of the ritualised response to, and expression of, the historical reality of social, cultural and ethical changes.  This concept will be discussed further in Chapter 1.

 

As well as ‘holding’, the performance-rituals function as a time and place for healing and ‘letting go’.  The process of preparing for the performance-rituals as well as the events themselves are a time for exploring and ‘holding’ the complexity of life on this planet.  This includes the identification of personal and global issues and their implications.  The identification is followed by a time of centring, or healing, and allowing the issues and questions ‘to be’ as well as addressing them in the presence of others.  In the end the issues and questions are ‘let go’ or ‘given over’ in a similar way to the way in which prayer functions in the Christian church.  It does not mean that they will not be revisited at some stage.  It is just for a time.  At the right time, if change has not occurred, appropriate issues will re-emerge in a different context.  The ‘letting go’ allows movement and gives the freedom to move on unencumbered so that the journey can continue.  This extension of ‘holding’ builds on Sara Ruddick’s and Ariel Salleh’s work and will be further explored in Chapter 1.[39]

 

In spite of their changing identity and content the performance-rituals still dialogue with tradition.  They unite the traditions of the past, including that of Christianity, with an evolving tradition of the present;  a tradition which includes the history of people, of religious belief systems, and ritual.[40]  This dialogue is presented through the past and present stories of women in relation to a more general history of the world, as well as ritual actions, metaphors, images and journeys which have both past and present significance.  In this way they help to illuminate and recreate a continuing cultural connection that has relevance to a person who is increasingly experiencing a sense of alienation in a rapidly changing world.

 

Like feminist writing, performance-ritual is also political action.  It is a space, time and place where those issues, stories, metaphors, symbols and images which need to be seen and heard can be presented and highlighted.  In this way, information and awareness can be directly or indirectly transferred.  Performance-ritual opens a space to ask questions such as, ‘who are we?’, ‘where did we come from?’, ‘what are we doing here?’, ‘what are we doing?’, ‘what do we think we are doing?’, ‘what is happening in the world, in our country, in our own community?’, ‘do we like what we see?’, ‘what needs to change?’, ‘what can change?’ ‘how can we create a ‘better’ world/country/community?’, ‘what do we mean by ‘better’?’, ‘what do I see is woman’s ‘place’?’, ‘what, as a woman, would I like to change?’...?  The questions are explicit, taking performance-ritual beyond just an expression of a woman’s spirituality.  When it is part of the feminist project of identification, and naming, of the patriarchal paradigm underlying Western culture, and of searching for alternatives by re-naming and re-creating from a woman’s perspective, it can be termed ‘feminist performance-ritual’.  This is the journey Daly terms ‘the journey of exorcism and ecstasy’ and  the journey of ‘a woman becoming’ (Daly, 1990:1).[41]  This journey is examined in detail in Chapter 1 and, in relation to performance-ritual, in Chapters 4, 5 and 6.

 

‘Performance-ritual’ offers a space, time and place for questions and comments in the hope of connecting with others and triggering, or motivating, other questions and actions. To again summarise Probyn, it is the text that holds ontological and epistemological ways of knowing together and supports the broader project of challenging structures of power in an attempt to bring about holistic awareness and radical change.  It is a way of speaking of real concerns about the world, its people and its future with the aim, in Morgan’s (1996:8) words, of ‘saving the fragile blue and green biosphere named Earth’, or, as Raphael’s says, ‘the...spiritual feminist is an epistemologically unified subject in pursuit of a just, organicist future’(Raphael, 1996:114, 115).[42]

 

The performance-rituals, then, are multi-dimensional. They simultaneously function, and can be expressed, in many ways.  They could be described as personal, embodied, gendered narratives of journeys and politico-religious discourse...or, an evolving, personalised and therefore, in this instance, woman-centred theology and tradition...or, part of the reformation and signification of a changing physical and spiritual identity as a white Australian woman in time and place as well as non-time and non-place...or, a contemporary white Australian woman’s religious and feminist practice.  In whatever way they are described, the performance-rituals have provided me with an alternative to the socio-religious function that the Church once filled:  a sacred time and space/place to reflect on the ‘self-world’ interface in the presence of community/audience and ‘other’/’life force’/’energy’/’?’.  In this way, the performance-rituals in Centre of the Storm become an expression of one moment in an individualised, white, woman-centred and changing religion, that draws on tradition and also reflects the Australian context.

 

This thesis celebrates the multidimensional nature of performance-ritual within the broader categories of feminist spirituality and ritual.  The written text discusses those areas the performance-rituals exemplified in this document reveal:  body, nature, place including family, holding, letting go, and the ritual structure and function of each event.  The allowance for multidimensionality is part of feminist theory, and allowing multidimensionality challenges the academic preference for linearity and minimalism.

 

Background to Centre of the Storm

Most writing on women’s spirituality has come out of the United States, and does not completely answer the needs of this Australian woman.  The increasing public presence of Indigenous Australians challenges Australia’s ‘whiteness’ and history of colonisation.  At the same time, seeing the way in which many in the indigenous community take pride in ‘family’, and in reclaiming their unique traditions and traditional expression, highlights the lack of knowledge Christians and ex-Christians have about their pre-Christian cultural and familial history, especially in relation to religion. These observations are given weight by an awareness of the growing numbers of ‘whities’ in the Sydney of the 70’s, 80’s, 90’s and 2000 who are searching for alternative spiritualities, artistic expression, and societal functioning, by searching in the East or in indigenous cultures.  This is especially intriguing in relation to those women who have found the Christian religion lacking and have embraced other religions authored by men, such as Sufism, Hinduism or Buddhism, which have little to do with our own cultural background and experience.  It is as if the ‘Western’ culture has failed in some way. 

 

Often, there seems to be the expectation that somehow ‘the answer’ is in ‘being’ these ‘others’ or following the philosophy of life, art and religion of other cultures.  This observation is reinforced in the writing coming from Europe and America at the end of the of 19th and beginning of the 20th centuries from those Western spiritual and artistic forebears who had rejected or at least were questioning Christianity.  They had followed the same path to the Orient.  A number of these writers are examined in Chapter 2.  What have ‘we whities’ lost or felt we have lost, and what do we expect from life?

 

On the other hand a number of members from other cultures, whom I met when travelling through Fiji, Bali, Thailand and Ghana, seem to want to get out of their own culture and poverty, become ‘Western’ and come to Australia.  Some have become Christian, even if they have kept their traditional beliefs and practices.  During these travels there was always somebody wanting to adopt an ‘auntie’ or who wanted addresses, money for family or sickness, or...  Each on their own side seeing ‘other’ as having ‘what is needed’:  for the West the spiritual, artistic and a romanticised ‘time of perfection and harmony’, and for indigenous, the Western spiritual and its associated material benefits, and ‘ideal life’.  At the same time, there were others who viewed the Western culture in a less than favourable light.

 

There seems to be a romanticism which emerges when ‘other’ cultures, especially those which seem to differ radically from ‘our own’, are spoken, or written, or thought about.  Other cultures always seem ‘exotic’, more exciting, more interesting and more meaningful.  It is as if ‘they’ know the answer and have the secret to life.  This attitude is also reflected in popular Western reclamations of ‘goddess worship’, ‘witchcraft’, ‘druidism’ and other ‘ancient’ religions. One of the quests in Centre of the Storm was to revisit these ‘ancient times’ through the eyes of ‘respected’ archaeologists, historians and researchers into early religion.  The hope was that the process of knowing the reality, or as close to it as available material allows, of my own changing tradition and history, would give a base from which to develop an individualised and relevant spirituality.  This means that the project is also deliberately and consciously Eurocentric.[43]  At the same time, it is acknowledged that this subject position is just one of many other subject positions.  So, it is hoped that the process of learning my changing story and tradition, and how this story places me in this land, will allow me to accept and understand the traditions of others.[44] 

 

Centre of the Storm

 

This is the way in which Centre of the Storm (1998-2000) came into being.  The initial video, Centre of the Storm: the videoed hypothesis (1998), expresses the spiritual alienation of a contemporary suburban Australian white woman who had been raised in, and had left, the Christian faith.  It begins from a statement of alienation, asks ‘why?’, and hypothesises that an understanding of the family-religion-Australia intersection may engender a ‘sense of place’.  The research and performance journey that followed was directed by this hypothesis.  The video consequently gave birth to four seasonal performance-rituals which attempt to answer the questions posed in the video.  The seasonal performance-rituals are:

                       

                        Beginnings

                        Sense Of Place, Sacred Space:  Arrival

                        The Fire Of The Sun

                        Passage

 

This series is a continuation of previous performance-rituals in that, individually, they fulfil the previously described elements of performance-ritual.  They are multidimensional performances and rituals which are intuitive, embodied, gendered journeys and politico-religious discourse.  As well, they have all relied on synchronicity in timing, place and theme for their actualisation.  None were planned in advance but evolved during the research around the ‘next idea’, which was related to the next season, and were performed where and when the opportunity was offered at the ‘right time’.  Because of the time pressure that this way of working engendered, each performance-ritual was also partly improvised, and this assisted their ritual aspect.  As well as individual rituals the series of five, when viewed as a whole, form a rite-of-passage, a rite of passage into the ‘centre of the storm’ and into the beginnings of a new ground for spirituality.  The ground is a multidimensional woven matrix which includes the series titles, ‘centre of the storm’, ‘beginnings’, ‘arrival’, ‘survival’ and ‘passage’;  the associated metaphors of ‘conception’, ‘birth’, ‘maturation’, ‘aging’;  the material reality and specificity of this ‘body’, ‘nature’, and specificity of ‘place’, where ‘place’ includes ‘family’;  and the ritual actions of ‘holding’ and ‘letting go’.  The performance-rituals in Centre of the Storm begin Daly’s ‘journey of ecstasy’.

 

The written thesis interprets early performance-rituals Dark Fire, For Eve, Fallen Totems, and Leavetaking and the more recent series, Centre of the Storm, from the standpoint of feminist theology, ecofeminist theory, Western ritual discourse, and the 19-20th century history of women performing spirit.  The early performance-rituals are included to establish a ritual and theoretical ground for Centre of the Storm.  The discussion begins, in Chapter 1, with an introduction to 20th century radical and ecofeminist spirituality, which Daly terms ‘the spiralling journey of exorcism and ecstasy’, ‘the journey of a woman becoming’.  Feminist writing supports spiritualities and rituals which are subjective, embodied, contextualised and process oriented.  Centre of the Storm extends this theory to include concepts of ‘place’ and ‘family’, especially in the development of an Australian spirituality.

 

Chapter 2 examines the emergence of spiritual naturalism in Western women’s performance at the turn of the 19th to 20th centuries.  The examples given are embodied, subjective and process-oriented expressions of spirituality, and the precursor of performance-ritual.  It continues with an examination of the beginnings of the loss of conscious spiritual expression in 20th century secular performance.

 

Chapter 3 engages with ritual theory.  It examines the loss of ‘spirit’ in current theoretical debates on ritual, beginning in 20th century, where ritual becomes objectified, disembodied and decontextualised;  a loss that this thesis and spiritual feminist’s usage of the term challenges.  It argues against the universalising of ‘ritual’ to include many types of action, and uses performance-ritual to highlight the similarities and differences between performance and ritual.

 

Chapters 4 revisits and analyses earlier performance-rituals, Dark Fire, For Eve, Fallen Totems, and Leavetaking in the light of this theoretical base.  They are included to illustrate the overall ‘spiralling journey of exorcism and ecstasy’ and to introduce the analytical framework.  The analysis takes two major approaches.  The first is an analysis of the structural and functional aspects, from the perspective of ritual.  The second is an examination of the content from a feminist and ecofeminist perspective.  This chapter lays the groundwork for the establishment of a feminist spirituality through performance-ritual.

 

Chapters 5 and 6 apply this analysis to Centre of the Storm to establish a matrix for an Australian feminist spirituality around the concepts of body, nature, place, which includes family, and the ritual actions of ‘holding’ and ‘letting go’.  Centre of the Storm is the beginning of ‘the journey of ecstasy’.  Where Centre of the Storm differs from previous performance-rituals is its focus on the Australian context of seasonal change, and white history of colonisation.  Centre of the Storm begins to address how this history affected, and continues to affect, the traditional landholders, the nonhuman environment, and the colonisers themselves.  In this way Centre of the Storm moves from the more radical feminist standpoint of the earlier work to an ecofeminist perspective, and begins to form a new spirituality.  This progression will be illustrated in Chapters 4, 5 and 6.

 

Appendix A contains the scripts of the performance-rituals in Centre of the Storm. The complete scripts of the earlier works are not available. Appendix B contains additional information on Elizabeth Pulley.  Appendix C contains a videotape with short selected excerpts from the performance-rituals in Centre of the Storm.  It is to be used to illustrate the written analysis in Chapters 5 and 6.  Appendix D contains videotapes of the complete performance-rituals in Centre of the Storm.  Visual records of earlier performance-rituals are not available, apart from photographs used in Chapter 4.

 


Notes



[1] Morgan, R.  Dry Your Smile.  London, The Womens Press, 1988.

 

[2] The high value given to Pure Knowledge in the West and the hierarchical dualisms inherent in this positioning are challenged by Donna Wilshire in ‘The Uses of Myth, Image, and the Female Body in Re-visioning Knowledge’ in Jaggar, A.  Gender/body/knowledge:  feminist reconstructions of being and knowing.  NJ, Rutgers University Press, 1989.  Susan Griffin had already challenged this assumption in 1982 (Griffin, S.  Made from This Earth, London, The Women’s Press, 1982, Part III: Poetry as a Way of Knowledge).

 

[3] Raphael, M.  Thealogy and Embodiment:  The Post-Patriarchal Reconstruction of Female Sacrality.  Sheffield, Sheffield Academic Press, 1996.

 

[4] In Protestant Christianity, the teaching presents the Christian Bible as the actual ‘word of God’, and the stories contained in the Bible, as historically accurate.  I wanted to find if there was historical evidence for these events.   This was ‘the truth’ I was searching for.

 

[5] Even Jesus Christ was a sanitised version, presented as a white man, son of a white God, even though he was from the Middle East.  His ethnicity was somehow ignored or not stressed.

 

[6] Women’s writing was not seen to be serious writing.  Even if women-authored books were read and enjoyed they were quickly dismissed or it was assumed that they were written by men (see also Spender, D.  Women of Ideas and what men have done to them.  London, Pandora, 1982/1988 and Writing a New World, Two Centuries of Australian Women Writers.  London, Pandora, 1988).  Also the focus was on English, that is, British-written, texts. I remember being riveted by Coonardoo by Katherine Susannah Pritchard as a teenager but did not really note that it was written by an Australian woman about Australia and that this was unusual.  Nor was I aware that its publication had caused so much controversy.  My dad was a partner in a bookstore at the time and brought it home, among others, for my literary education.  It was only recently, while reading Spender, that I realised the significance of the fact that it was probably one of the few books I had read that was authored by a woman, in spite of the many women writing and being published at the time.  It’s significance also lay in it thematically being focussed in Australia with an Aboriginal woman as the central character in an attempt to explore black-white relationships.

 

[7] This may not be the truth.  The fact that it is remembered this way illustrates how much and what kind of an impact the story had.

 

[8] Moreton-Robinson, A.  Talkin’ Up to the White Woman:  Aboriginal Women and Feminism.  St. Lucia, Qld, University of Queensland, 2000.

 

[9] Information taken from NAISDA’s 1994 Student Handbook and an email from ADTR, dated 8th April, 2002.

 

[10] Fox, M.  Original Blessing:  A Primer in Creation Spirituality.  Santa Fe, NM, Bear, 1983.

 

[11] Refer to Brady, V.  Caught in the Draught.  Pymble, NSW, Angus & Robertson, 1994.  Hammond, C.  (ed.)  Creation Spirituality & the Dreamtime.  Newtown, NSW, Millennium, 1991. Bird Rose, D.  ‘Indigenous Ecology and an Ethic of Hope’, Paper prepared for the Conference ‘Environmental Justice:  Global Ethics for the 21st Century, Melbourne, Oct 1-3, 1997 and Nourishing Terrains:  Australian Aboriginal Views of Landscape and Wilderness.  Canberra, ACT, Australian Heritage Commission, 1996.  Stockton, E.  The Aboriginal Gift:  Spirituality for a Nation.  Alexandria, NSW, Millennium, 1995;  ‘Coming Home to Our Land’, Tjurunga.  Vol 35, Sept. 1988, pp. 29-40;  and ‘This Land, Our Mother’,   CCJP Occasional Paper No. 9,  Surry Hills, NSW, 1986.

 

[12] The catching up is time consuming.  The unavailability of women’s studies in educational institutions, and my consequent late discovery of a long and forgotten tradition of women’s philosophy and writing, has meant that women can spend a lot of ‘wasted’ time re-inventing, re-thinking, re-discovering and re-writing ideas that have been around for centuries.  It also requires a concerted effort to search out both women-authored as well as male-authored material, a practice men may not find as necessary.  It is a slow process without a guide.  On the other hand the time is not wasted for it is necessary to keep re-discovering and re-presenting the past to keep women’s writing and heritage alive.  In relation to the ‘real’ Australian story both white women and men are equally disadvantaged.

 

[13] The Festival of Sydney, Worship in the Park, The Domain, Sydney.  An outdoor ecumenical service as part of Bicentennial celebrations.

 

[14] By this time I was becoming more aware because of events at an Australian Creation Spirituality conference I had attended the year before.  So I decided to perform a protest piece to the readings:  Isaiah’s and Revelation’s prophecy of the coming of ‘a new heaven and a new earth’.  By the time of the service one of the female ministers, who had been on leave, returned, also realised what was happening and made some last minute changes.  I doubt if anyone else, except the organisers, knew.  After it was over one of the members of the congregation came up after the service to say she enjoyed the performance but felt I should have left the tape off my mouth at the end, not put it back on.  I don’t remember what I said but I knew that we, that is the Christian church as a whole and the members of its congregation, were not yet ready to hear the voice of ‘others’, that ‘they’ were still being spoken for and therefore silenced.

 

[15] Revelation 21:1-5, 22-24a and 22:1-2.  The other reading was Isaiah 61:1-4.

 

[16] For example, Song in a Strange Land, Eastside Uniting Church Hall, 1987, Memories and other Matters, Eastside Uniting Church Hall, 1992,  Into the Dark, Eastside Uniting Church 1993 and A Cup of Tea, The Art Gallery of NSW, 1993 and Religion, Literature and the Arts Conference, 1994, ‘Hold On’ Schools Program, 1993, 1994.

 

[17] Boland, E.  In Her Own Image.  Dublin, Arlen, 1980;  Daly, M.  Beyond God the Father.  Boston, Beacon, 1985a, Gyn/Ecology.  Boston, Beacon, 1990, Outercourse.  Australia, Spinifex, 1993, Pure Lust., Elemental Feminist Philosophy.  U.K.  The Woman’s Press, 1984, Quintessence...Realizing the Archaic Future.  Boston, Beacon, 1998, The Church and the Second Sex.  Boston, Beacon, 1985b;  Griffin, S. Made From This Earth.  London, Womens Press, 1982, Woman  and Nature:  The Roaring Inside Her.  London, Womens Press, 1984;  Morgan, R.  Dry Your Smile.  London, The Womens Press, 1988.

 

[18] Probyn, E.  Sexing the Self, Gendered Positions in Cultural Studies.  London, Routledge, 1994.

 

[19] Daly, M.  Beyond God the Father.  Boston, Beacon, 1985a.

 

[20] Dark Fire was an outdoor performance trilogy funded by Newtown Festival in 1994.  Part 1, Descent, was performed at Victoria Park Pool;  part 2, Initiation, was performed in Newtown Square, part 3, Dark Fire, was performed in Sydney Park.  For Eve was performed as part of the School of Women Artists Network exhibition in 1995.  Fallen Totems was performed at Sydney Fringe Festival, Belvoir St. Theatre, Sydney and as part of the Songs of the Wind Festival in Katoomba in 1997.  The installations for each of these were created by Irene Kindness.

 

[21] The temptation is to say ‘levels’ but this suggests a hierarchy of functions.  Rather, the functions work simultaneously and democratically;  co-operating and communicating.  This way of functioning is also supported by feminist theological and ecofeminist writing.

 

[22] ‘Performance’ is used in this thesis in the theatrical sense:  as an event specifically created for time and place, and in ‘heightened’ form for a potential, if not actual, audience. It does not refer to ‘the everyday’, ordinary, or mundane, as used for example in Cultural Studies and Management.  ‘Performance’ or ‘theatre’ are both used to indicate the combined use of dance, movement, drama, enactment, text, music, sound and song, otherwise the specific term is used to define the particular form of performance or theatre being discussed.

 

[23] In Mary Daly’s terms, Elemental is ‘of, relating to, or caused by great forces of nature’ (Daly, M.  Pure Lust., Elemental Feminist Philosophy.  London, The Woman's Press, 1984, p. 4) or ‘characterized by stark simplicity, naturalness...’ and Be-ing is ‘Ultimate/Intimate Reality’ (Daly, M.  Websters First New Intergalactic Wickedary of the English Language.  London, The Women's Press, 1988, pp. 64, 72).

 

[24] Leavetaking was performed in 1997 as part of The Performance Space’s Open Program.

 

[25] In the context of this document, ‘structural’ refers to the analysis of ritual in terms of the rites it contains, and ‘functional’ refers to the analysis of the purpose of each rite.

 

[26] This contradicts Polyani’s assertion that the viewer experiences an emergence into the mind of the artist (Polyani, 1983:16, 17).  ‘Emergence’ cannot be assumed or expected and probably is not the case.  Who can ‘know’ another’s mind?  Whatever is triggered in the viewer’s mind and emotions probably has more to do with the viewer’s own ‘mental state’, needs, desires, experience, motivation or purpose.

 

[27] Fowler, F. G. & Fowler, H. W.  The Pocket Oxford Dictionary of Current English.  Oxford, OUP, 1955.  A similar definition, ‘study of God and his relations with man and the universe’, is found in Barnhardt, R. K. (ed.)  The Barnhardt Dictionary and Etymology.  US:  H W Wilson, 1988.

 

[28] Although Daly addresses the ‘Gates of the Goddess’ and ‘Goddess murder’ in Gyn/Ecology her theology moves beyond women-centred metaphors and vocabulary, a point which will be discussed further in Chapter 3.  In Divine Women Irigaray does use women-centred vocabulary for ‘divinity’, but does not go as far as naming the ‘divine’ in women, ‘goddess’.

 

[29] Dodson-Gray, E.  Green Paradise Lost.  Massachusetts, Roundtable, 1981 and Patriarchy as a Conceptual Trap.  Wellesley, Massachusetts, Roundtable, 1982.  Ruether,  R. R.  Gaia & God, An Ecofeminist Theology of Earth Healing. London, HarperCollins, 1992 and New Woman, New Earth, Sexist Ideologies and Human Liberation.  Boston, Beacon, 1995.

 

[30] Habel, N. C. (ed.)  The Earth Bible, Vols. 1-4.  Sheffield, England,  Sheffield Academic Press, 2000, 2001 and Fox, M. The Coming of the Cosmic Christ.  San Francisco, Harper & Row, 1988 and Original Blessing:  A Primer in Creation Spirituality.  Santa Fe, NM, Bear, 1983. Fox also falls into the trap of using ‘feminine’ archetypes, such as ‘mother’ and ‘compassion’ as female aspects of God and Cosmic Christ.  From an ecological perspective, not all writers in The Earth Bible series found that the scriptures they selected supported the concept of ecojustice.  The first volume also included Heather Eaton and Elaine M. Wainwright, who critiqued the ecojustice principles and scripture from an ecofeminist standpoint.  Not all of the articles were ‘scripture-friendly’.

 

[31] Ruether, R. R.  Sexism and God-Talk:  Toward a Feminist Theology.  Boston, Beacon, 1983 and Wainwright, E.  ‘Wisdom is Justified by her Deeds:  Claiming the Jesus-Myth’ in Joy, M. & Magee P. (eds.)  Claiming our Rites:  Studies in Religion by Australian Women Scholars.  Wollstonecraft, NSW, The Australian Association for the Study of Religions, 1994, pp. 57-75.  Yet Pamela Foulkes warns that those attempting feminist retrieval of biblical text by exemplifying Sophia as Lady Wisdom, tend to ignore the implications of her use by the patriarchs, from the time of her beginnings in the Israelite ‘Mother of Heaven’ goddess, her transformation into Sophia, and later metamorphosis into Jesus.  (Foulkes, P.  ¢Wisdom Cries Out in the Street’:  The Exploration of a Biblical Symbol’ in Haskell, D. (ed.) Tilting at Matilda.  Sth. Fremantle, Western Australia, Fremantle Arts Centre, 1994, pp. 97-109).

 

[32] This is important, especially for women.  In 1994 I had the unfortunate experience of facilitating very personal workshops for women and having the male owner of the space in which we were working, and which was booked for the weekend, come in over night to see what we were doing.  His comment was something along the lines of ‘...I couldn’t help myself...I just wanted to see what was going on...and when I saw all the casts of women drying on the floor I wanted to put my own cast there as well...’.  Why wasn’t he comfortable with the concept of a ‘women only’ space, community and process?  Why couldn’t he honour it and us and just let it and us be?  Why did he have to see and want to ‘spray’/claim territory/ invade and de-sacralise/defile it?  Needless to say I felt betrayed on behalf of myself as well as on behalf of the other women.

 

[33] This mirrors the needs of other contemporary women for their own ‘sacred space’ in their attempts to define their own spirituality.  A number of cultures have separate women-only rituals for specific purposes, including in some indigenous Australian and African tradition and this will be discussed in Chapter 1.

 

[34] Williams, D.  Ten Lectures on the Theories of the Dance.  Metuchen, N. J., Scarecrow, 1991.  Part of my hope, of course, in performing and writing about this work is that others may be inspired to begin, or continue, to author their own spirituality and/or perform their own spiritual journeys.

 

[35] Bell, D.  Daughters of the Dreaming.  Melbourne, McPhee, 1993.

 

[36] For further discussion about the assumed neutrality of ‘human’ and the consequences for women see Irigaray, L.  Thinking the Difference.  London, Athlone, 1994.

 

[37] Whether they ever were in fact ‘universal’ or ‘eternal’ is debatable and probably as incorrect as it is now.  In Western society any illusion we had about the significance and importance of these ‘values’ has been squashed.  The current crop of television series, such as ‘Shipwreck’, ‘Greed’, ‘The Weakest Link’ and ‘Temptation Island’ works consistently to show how easily people can be persuaded to ignore them all.  In addition, the examples we are given of corporate and political practices, by the media and other communication networks, illustrate clearly that these ‘values’ are not, and probably never have been, a reality of those in power.

 

[38] This creates another question in relation to ‘whose ideal and whose reality?’.  The answer is, that it is this writers;  the ideal is that which is held in the psyche, created and promoted by the Church’s and Society’s teachings through its various institutions,  as well as youthful imaginings.  The reality is the writer’s interpretation of ‘the real’ way people function and interact, and ‘the real’ way nonhuman nature functions and interacts, drawn from experiences, the messages promoted by the media and the written word, including the Internet. The ‘reality’ debate is not entered into in this thesis.

 

[39] Ruddick, S.  Maternal Thinking:  Towards a Politics of Peace.  London, Women’s Press, 1989, p.78 ff. and Salleh, A.  Ecofeminism as Politics: nature, Marx and the postmodern.  London, Zed Books, 1997, p. 144 ff.

 

[40] It is important for me to acknowledge the enormous influence Christianity has had on the West in general, and my life in particular:  from awakening in me an understanding and acceptance of a ‘divine realm’, to opening up in me ways of experiencing and expressing ‘other’, and to the way I perceive and use ritual in the form of ‘performance-ritual’.  Hence, I include a number of texts from Christian nuns in the text of the performance-rituals, and constantly refer to the Christian experience in the written text.  I have moved beyond, but the ‘beyond’ is still influenced by the past.

 

[41] Daly, M.  Gyn/Ecology.  Boston, Beacon, 1990.

 

[42] Morgan, R. in Bell, D. & Klein, R.  Radically Speaking, Feminism Reclaimed.  Nth. Melbourne, Spinifex, 1996.

 

[43] The Eurocentrism is unavoidable.  A number of indigenous writers have severely critiqued Western appropriation of indigenous material and Western bias in discussing it (Moreton-Robinson, A.  Talkin’ Up to the White Woman:  Indigenous Women and Feminism.  Australia, University of Queensland, 2000).   While attempts were made to gain as much understanding as possible about Australian indigenous presence and tradition, it was conducted mainly by book research, so it is only partial.  The partiality is emphasised by the fact that most books written on indigenous Australian traditions are written by white Westerners.  This current project, therefore, must remain within the Western tradition.

 

[44] Here I identify with Probyn where she writes of the need to know ‘who I am’ in the process of being ready to know who ‘they’ are so that I can find a way of moving from a secure centre to the edge of myself and see if it is possible to ‘be with’, acknowledging differences without priority of position .  The Christian outlook of my upbringing was, and in many cases still is, one of seeing itself as the one and only true religion in which all the world should believe.  The performance-rituals in this project were the first step in a longer and continuing process in what Probyn describes as the forward-backward movement towards difference/other.  Whereas Probyn is exploring ways of writing about ‘self’ and ‘other’ I am interested to see if this process of knowing who I am and where I am historically, traditionally and culturally will eventuate, in the future, in a ease of communication across ‘difference’, or whether it will further highlight or accentuate the differences and cause greater division.

 


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